Dear My Kiddo,

Mommy is soooooooo happy right now…You know why?!

I feel FREE now because i don’t have to hide my faith from anyone anymore.

Really, i was so tired of hiding it all the way, eventhough (ALLAH knows) i did it on purpose because of the situation and the condition.

But i guess…THIS IS IT…This is the time when i have to be honest to whom I should be honest to, which is your grandmother (ohh, she’s just lovely and fine, don’t worry about her) and your grandfather (ohh yeah, this is gonna be double trouble). Well, he reacted hard by telling me to get married soon, move out from house and not to contact him and the rest of his family after then.

You know what dear, “There will always be consequences for every decisions that you take.”

Do you think I’m afraid to face all the consequences, don’t you?! In fact…nooooo kiddo, i’m not afraid at all because i know ALLAH is with me all the way, that’s what makes me strong and stronger each day =D

So, starting from next week, I’m gonna move out from your grandfather’s house and…I’m gonna build my own life from scratch. Wish your mommy luck and don’t give up praying for me there, okay honey =)

The story actually began on 15 February 2012 when I’ve finally come up with a decision that i would love to have ISLAM as my faith and i would love to be a MUSLIM.

Therefore, i read the SHAHADAH with no one but ALLAH itself as my WITNESS.

Ever since that day, my life has been changed instantly, drastically and dramatically into a much much better life than ever before.

People may ask me “Are you sure about this?! What’s wrong with you?! Is it because of him or this..or that..or blah..blah..blah?! Why…Why…Why…?? “

All i could say to them is “It’s all because of ALLAH. HE has touched my soul. HE has opened my heart, my mind, my eyes, my ears, my mouth, my everything so i finally could be able to find the right way…and INSHA ALLAH ISLAM shall be my only way of life for now and ever.”

                                                                                                                        With love,

                                                                                                  Your Newborn Mommy

Dear My Kiddo,

I want to tell you nothing, but this:

“I’d loveeeee to go this place very often and I’d loveeeee to go there with you someday…”

                                                                                                                        With love,

                                                                                         Your Fragile-Hearted Mommy

“Family comes first. No matter what problem is, we’ll always stick together.”

                                                                                                    - Your Mommy-

Dear My Kiddo,

To tell you the truth, sweetheart..at the time like this, when I have so much problems with the things called: el-o-vi-e aka LOVE, sometimes I like to think that…errr, isn’t it better to have you just by myself, i mean..without daddy’s figure..?!

You know…Just You and Me…US…

Wouldn’t it be more than enough…uhm, only YOU AND MOMMY?!

                                                                                                                          Love US,

                                                                                                                         Bunda Al

Dear My Kiddo,

When you grow up quite mature enough to know right from wrong, I tell you what…

Let’s have days out together ‘cos WE ARE GOIN’ WILDDDDD..!!

So, let’s get this party started:

Let’s break all rules

Let’s watch porn

Let’s smoke weed and cigarettes

Let’s go to the club and drink some alcohol

Let’s drive cars and motorcycle really really fast along the road

But, HOLD ON…

Look…Promise me, you may do all those things only with Mommy and Daddy, okay..

DON’T DO IT with your fellow friends..!! You may ask me, “Why, mommy?”

Simply, it’s because they have no idea at all of what those things are all about.

                                                                                                                        With love,

                                                                                                                          Bunda Al

PS: Please do remind me when that day comes, kiddo =D

Your EVERYDAY Life = My ARTWORKS

Dear My Kiddo,

Have you seen the video yet?!

Sooooo cute, ehh?!

I tell you what…Mommy will make this kind of stuff very often, and guess what…

you just have to deal with it, no ifs, no buts, no maybes…

Now, the camera’s ON…ROLLING and…ACTION..!!

                                                                                                               Sincerely yours,

                                                                                           Your Mommy - Your Director

Dear My Kiddo,

When that day comes…that day when I get pregnant and you are already there, exactly right in my womb, well…don’t worry dear. You’ll never ran out of photos to be showed to your friends when you grow up =)

‘Cos trust me, ever since that day I’m gonna take pictures of us E-V-E-R-Y-D-A-Y.

Seriously, did I just write EVERYDAY?!

“Yes, Mommy, you did”

Okay then, let’s do it, kiddo =D

                                                                                   Love you EVERYDAY sweetheart,

                                                                                                                            Bunda Al

Dear My Kiddo,

Oh my…you are so cute when you asked me this question,

“Mommy…Mommy…what would my Daddy look like?”

According to your question, my answer will be:

“Is your daddy gonna be as rich as Bill Gates? I don’t know, I hope so.

Is your daddy gonna be as handsome as Johnny Depp? I don’t know, I hope so.

Is your daddy gonna be as genius as Quentin Tarantino? I don’t know, I hope so.

Is your daddy gonna be as famous as Michael Jackson? I don’t know, I hope so.

Is your daddy gonna be as religious as Dalai Lama? I don’t know, I hope so.

Is your daddy gonna be blah..blah..blah..blah..blah…??!

Well, to tell you the truth, honey…We haven’t met yet, so I DON’T KNOW.

Of course, I hope your daddy could be like them all at the same time.

But unfortunately, he just can’t be, dear. Know why?

Life has taught me one thing ‘Nobody’s perfect’, so is your will be-Daddy and so am I.

But all I can promise to you right now is, I will find the best daddy in the world for you, for us..

If he’s the best for me, then he should be the best for you, too.”

                                                                                                               Love you always,

                                                                                                                           Bunda Al

Dear My Kiddo,

Look…I know you haven’t been born yet.

But I’m sure your soul is already somewhere comfortable out there, with the Best Creator of all the time.

(Geez…I can’t believe I’m actually writing this to you -__-“)—>Feels like I’m going to die tomorrow or 15 minutes from now.

Well…who knows what might happen in the future, right?!

I mean…i’m soooo afraid if someday I couldn’t be able to meet you, my dear.

But…I keep believing like 1000% that someday we’ll eventually meet.

Yup…someday…someday when destiny wants us to meet, we’ll meet soon.

And that would be my prayer every night and day.

God must be good, so I guess He’ll listen to me on this one =D

To be honest, I MISS YOU.

Just so you know, my dear..if someday you’ll read this:

You know from the start, from the day you weren’t even born, your Mom already MISS YOU and she’ll always be so.

I’m really looking forward to seeing you soon.

In fact, I can’t wait of the day when you’ll come visit me for the very first time.

MISS YOU MUCH =)

                                                                                                                          With love,

                                                                                      Your will be mom - Bunda Al  =)

Hey there, fellas…

Mijn naam is Aletra =D

Right now, I’m 24 going on 25.

I’ve named my tumblr: Dear My Kiddo since I’ll dedicate this to my beloved Kiddo, so…they’ll always have something to be remembered about their mom when they grow up or when I won’t be around them anymore =)

Well, just so you know…I haven’t become a mom yet…

Soon… I’ll become one of course, just like most women out there.

BUT…BUT…BUT….

don’t ask me when that time will be…I still have no idea at all.

‘Cos you know, I’m still waiting for the sperm donor from one of those sperm bank, hahahaha…kidding…of course nooooottttt, I’m still waiting for the father who would cast me the best spell in the world “Would you be the mother of our will be-children?” =D

Anyway, I hope he (whoever he is) won’t take that too long, because I can’t stand of looking at the cute little kids out there anymore…feels like I want to kidnap them from their parents and keep them at home for my self, hahaha…

And so…here we go…

This is about my life, my story, my hopes, my wishes, my everything that I want to share to my beloved will be-Kiddo…

PS: Please…Don’t consider me as some sort of lunatic who got obsessed too much in having kids, haha. I guess it’s because of my maternal instinct is kicking in =)